Entry for 12th October, 2009 - Tree

I am planting a tree today as the thirteenth of my STIs (Small But Tangible improvements).
Planting a tree is a bit of an agonising thing for me. You see, I have this theory that, in any given garden, there is only one correct place for a tree – one perfect position, where it will feel truly alive, and will live up to its arboreal potential. If I make a mistake in this positioning, then my tree will not prosper; it will be forever a square peg in a round hole. And, for the rest of my life, the tree will look at me rather sadly and call to me in its little rustling voice – “You did this. You. You placed me in a patch of the world where I am forever wrong. You failed me, and I am unhappy.”
I have planted the tree now, after a thorough survey of the garden. But I am not happy. After I finish my banana, I am going out to reposition it. You see, it is in the right place now, but it is not facing the right way. For trees do not only have a correct position in the garden, but they also have to face the right way. Like children, if you start them off in the wrong direction, then they will never find their way in life.
Perhaps I am overthinking this.